17 years

 Knock knock, fellow time travelers. Anyone made it to 2023?

the quest.....

as the last rites were being committed.....
i was looking through the flame's core.....
in search of the l0st cord......
the muted music that once lapped the shore...
my inward eye searching for the crescent
that controlled the waves of this heart...
then a spark came forth....
tending to my belief that it would last.....
it broke away from the mould.....
as it rose in its grandeur......
and i saw her in red and gold......
but the spark died before the wings could fly me anymore....

in your eyes....i am blessed....like a jesus to a child

from destiny...to destination..
from signs.....to coincidences....
from acceptance.....to negligence....
is their anything as free will ?
or choice is merely an illusion.
the question is NOt "to be or not to be"
but its ...... to give in or to pass out
its .......giving in to desire or to the pending poetic justice....
its........being blisfully unaware or to dive head first into this mystic....
its........just letting it grow.......or to reach out .....

14:08

when was the last time u felt like music ?
felt like melody itself......with ur aura chalking out the
lyrics with every step u took.
with the allman brothers's blue sky playing in ur head....
when was the last time....u were on ur blue island...

Blue Island.....

Living in a world that dies within...
You are they who try and touch the wind
You could be the blessed one
that Makes me love you
And doing what you've never done before
Taking every wave that hits the shore
You could be a silver star
that shines
On my blue island...

at the edge of the universe......

what if one does somthin completely alien to his nature......?
well i still dont know how i did it.....but i do know....what it feels like after u have done it......reminds of the feeling in beegees song..called....edge of the universe .......i was filled with undescribable feeling of freedom.....just like the first time one sees an aeroplane flying overhead and he believes that he can touch it....by stretching his arms......and jumping.
somthin pretty close to free-fallin.
and why i did it...? hmm....well ! firsttime...i thought that a man's destination is his destiny......and the lord makes sure.....of it..by giving u so many signs in the form of co-incidence.....that u just cant ignore it.

got down on my knees.....

these off and on phase......they seem troublesome.....but they r not....coz the off phase passes like a wind....and the on phase.....passes ..by me making up for the blunders i made by not being there for people i love during my off phase.

recent most happiness....came in the form of me reading mails...of my best friend and his girl friend.....their love reminds me so much of somthin which i had.....that intoxcating.....feeling....of being owned.
and reminded me that love does have words of its own......reading them...will wrap u in a bubble of trance....when one seems to look through everything ......into the mystic....of infinite space....
i thanked him for letting me in..his world. his world was my world.....for one brief moment.....when i was actually was looking into my heart....for the love....thats still there.....that enveloped me once.